meeting with James

Today is my first meeting of the new year with James at Alternatives. I have worked with him before, but I am nervous about today. I feel super fat and jiggly with all the water I have on my body. That impedes my movement. I feel like a giant gross sponge. I have heard and read that insulin makes you gain weight, I don't feel like I have actually gained weight, it feels like water. I feel all sloshy and gross. I hope James can help with that. I think I need to see my doctor and see if it is time for another round of meds to help lose the water. Am I just making excuses because I am freaked out about exercising? We will see how today goes. I am excited and scared! But I trust James, so I know it will go well.